and I mean I don’t even really have friends cuZ I’M TOO QUIET AND NOT INTERESTED IN LOVE OR SEX AND STUFF AND OMFG FRESHMAN YEAR THAT’S LIKE WHAT EVERYONE TALKED ABOUT
and last week in AP Art the subject of love came up and my teacher asked me if I’ve ever been in love and I didn’t know what to say cuz yeah but that was only with one guy and it was in the 7th grade and we’re just really close friends now cuz it was more comfortable that way and I discovered that I was asexual and he discovered that he was gay and people find that last part so sad/pitiful but like????? I don’t really understand why it wasn’t like it was right after the two months of secret dating (idk nothing changed about our friendship other than that we said I love you and stuff???) that he found out??? and I was actually uncomfortable during those two months and I discovered that I didn’t like close contact at all and then later on when there was another guy and I had a crush on him and he had a crush on me but when he put his arm around me I was so uncomfortable and everyone took it as me being embarrassed???
SO YEAH BACK TO THE ART CLASS my teacher was like “awwwwww :( HAVE been??” and like idk how heartbreak goes cuz I never experienced this but yeah
idk how this went from me talking about how I have no friends to something about love